Say a little pray 

It’s after 5 am. I can’t get back to sleep. I woke up about an hour ago, checked the time on my phone, and saw I had six missed calls from my sisters. Four from the eldest, she never really calls, so I knew something must be wrong. I phoned her back. My dad is…

Greece is the word

Borrowing a line from one of my fav teen flicks. Not the right spelling, I know.  But Greece is where I is at. And it’s just what the children and I needed. My daughter is laughing and smiling. No daddy bedtime tears for two nights running now… what a relief. My son is chatting away…

Worth it

Posting about my inner demons. Like yesterday’s one on anxiety. Sometimes helps so much. Releasing them. Putting them down in black and white. Receiving words of support and encouragement (thank you Struth my wonderful friend). Seems to make them less powerful.  After Struth’s comments, I started to think, you know what, I am worth it. …

Living with…

…Anxiety. The unruly brutal beast. All consuming. Transforms tiny, insignificant, occurances into world-ending insurmountable stumbling blocks.  Churns your stomach into knots and casts its dark cloud over your mind. Sleep becomes your enemy. There is no respite or release. You never feel at peace. Makes you question yourself, mercilessly and renders you incapable of seeing…

Stockholm Syndrome 

“If you are an approval addict, your behaviour is as easy to control as that of any other junkie. All a manipulator need do is a simple two-step process: Give you what you crave, and then threaten to take it away. Every drug dealer in the world plays this game.” Harriet B. Braiker When I…

Self kindness

Being kind to myself isn’t something that comes naturally to me. I put others first. I overthink things. I often feel guilty or to blame for things that I know aren’t my fault. I am my own worse judge. In an attempt to redress this, I have been spontaneous and booked a holiday. In Greece…