Reader

Life has been so hectic and exhausting since I started working full-time, I often don’t have the time to check out the WP reader. When I do, I tend to only read the sites I follow. One thing I’ve noticed over the last 14 months, is that blogs come and go. Lots of people I…

Signs

If you read my blog, you’ll know I like Coelho’s notion of pursuing one’s personal legend. Coelho considers following your personal legend or blessings is key to achieving fulfilment. See his blog 12 steps to fulfillment for a brief overview. One of the ways to do this is ‘reading the signs’. Coelho states: this is an individual…

Survive it

Why does it still hurt so? Treading water; can’t let go Why still after all this time, Is it far from fine? Why do I still care? Have crushing moments of despair Why does life still feel Alien, confusing, surreal? Why can’t I adjust to the new norm? Feel comfortable with my new form. Why…

Pain 

Pain stuffed inside of me Can’t let anyone near me  Can’t let anyone see the real me  Can’t let anyone even hug me  All this pain that’s held in me  Why can’t anyone see the real me  Why can’t anyone help me  Why can’t someone just hold me  All this pain that’s eating me  Can’t…

Somatic Stress

My poor body continues to register the stress I’m under. Sleeplessness, erratic menstrual cycle, headaches, muscle tension have been constant post-bomb ways of being.  Since Crash, however, an array of illnesses have joined the somatic stress party.  An eye stye, an ear infection and now tonsillitis. Seeing. Hearing. Speaking. My body is obviously trying to…

Consistency 

I have been in a reflective mood today.  Mindfulness, attempting to live in the moment, has gone out of the window.  Just for today, hopefully. I’m gearing up for Friday.  Thinking about where to start with my counsellor and project ‘letting the sadness out’.  Trying to pinpoint or name (it’s hard to label emotions and…