Enough

Wasn’t breaking my heart enough? Destroying my world, Obliterating my reality, Shattering my security, Annihilating my hopes, Dismantling my dreams. Replacing all I had known, All I had created, All I had worked so hard to achieve, With living the worst possible nightmare. No. It would seem. Breaking my heart was not enough. Scorn adds…

Paranoid Android

Please could you stop the noise I’m trying to get some rest From all the unborn chicken voices in my head What’s that? What’s that? When I am king, you will be first against the wall With your opinion which is of no consequence at all I know I’m not actually suffering from paranoia: I…

Blues Skies 

My wonderful friend S, who is so sage and exudes peace, came to my rescue last night. Her capacity to listen, to say the right thing at the right time, amazes me.  She declared that this is the worst it will ever be. My lowest point.  I needed to hear that. I needed to have…

Respite

For those of you who are not familiar with  the song Ghost Assassin, and don’t want to listen to it, the opening lines are… “Hey commander, can you unplug me?  Just for a minute, I need some privacy.”  Headset off and stretch her neck out  Down the rocks to her head’s safe house. My head’s…

Positive

I used to live by the rule… Don’t go to sleep on an argument. It feels like I’ve had an argument today, even though I did not respond/air my feelings. So instead of saying sorry to Ex – as I would invariably do – I am saying sorry to me. I’m trying to be kind…