When We Two Parted

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sunk chill on my brow–
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame;
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o’er me–
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well–
Long, long shall I rue thee,
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met–
In silence I grieve,
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?–
With silence and tears.

By Lord Byron

My middle son is performing this poem as part of his Speech and Drama exam.

He rehearsed it with me last night.

It made me cry….

….Because of the eloquence and passion of his delivery. Remarkable for a young man of 16.

….but also because of the words and sentiment. I know Bryon is talking about the ending of a secret affair: that bit doesn’t resonate.

But Ex and I parted in silence and tears… no words were said… I just starred at him, tears streaming down my face, my eyes clearly imploring him not to leave.

Ah fuck.

I’m such a sentimental old soul.

He broke my heart.

And even though I’m moving on. Even though I know what I had for 22 years was mostly the product of my imagination. Even though I know he never really existed in the way I saw him through the eyes of love. Even though I know the truth.

Our parting can still make me shed a tear.

11 thoughts on “When We Two Parted

  1. Hello darling… i think your ex has had some sort of mental split in his brain. As if he could just start fresh by disappearing and living anew elsewhere. (Wouldn’t we all like that, selfish bastard.) You mourn for so much since you still have to suffer through the pain your children endure. Sending you a warm hug as you have your sad feelings. ❤️ I hope you have better days.

  2. Will that feeling ever leave, I wonder? I signed my divorce application the other day and foolishly cried in front of the lawyer witnessing. As Athena said, feel it’s about the children and letting them down than tears for losing him. It’s still a loss I suppose and we’re right to still grieve. Baby steps. In right direction. Towards something amazing that has our name on it 🙂 xx

    • Ah, Struth. Big hugs my love. Not sure what signing means. Is that the end stages? Here, the application is one of the first stages.
      Yes, the children and the impact this is having on them continues to be my biggest source of sorrow. My poor babies.
      Trying to focus on the light at the end of tunnel but it is dim and keeps flickering out of sight. One day, we’ll get there. One day… xxx

  3. It’s all part of the grieving process. Grief for the life that was lost, the future you imagined etc. Its natural the tears will flow but you have made it this far and you will make it through. Praying for better strength, courage, wisdom and better days for you and your children xx

    • Thank you my friend. I’m having a very tough time at the moment. Taking me by surprise… I thought time would make it easier. Think it’s because the end my be near, please God…. so want it to happen but making me reflective. xxx

      • Completely understandable. I was the same. Wanted it over but it was bitter sweet and def left me in a reflective mode. You’ve made it this far. Better days are ahead even if it doesnt feel like it

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