Moved

It’s been a while since I posted. Again. I must get more disciplined. But this time, not for the usual reasons. For excellent, wonderful, glorious ones. I’ve moved house. It’s been full on, with starting the new job I only took moving day off. I moved out of the matrimonial home – the place I…

Luck

I don’t want to tempt fate… But… I have had another spot of good luck. I’ve got a job!!!! It was confirmed last Friday and I started today. It’s doing something I’d never dreamed of doing. But it’s a decent salary. Flexible hours. Something well within my capabilities (low stress). It came out of the…

Catch up#4 FriENDS

This is a complex one. It will be rambling. Well done if you make it to the end. I suspect you won’t! Pre-bomb I had a very active social. I had a core group of people I considered to be real friends – my oldest pal S (we met when we were 9), people who’d…

Safe (I don’t feel it)

Laying on the living room floor. In tears. Crying bucket loads. Listening to music. Woeful tunes. Unhelpful. But I can’t help it. Too many martinis… stirred not shaken… 007 Daniel Craig stylie… he’s not bothered if they are shaken or stirred. Mind racing. Heart racing. I don’t feel safe. An alien concept, I abore. I…

Still…

Still not right Lost my fight Can’t find my spark Trapped in the dark The smallest thing Sends me reeling Wish I could shake it Or even fake it God, I miss the light I just want to feel alright