Catch up#4 FriENDS

This is a complex one. It will be rambling. Well done if you make it to the end. I suspect you won’t! Pre-bomb I had a very active social. I had a core group of people I considered to be real friends – my oldest pal S (we met when we were 9), people who’d…

Safe (I don’t feel it)

Laying on the living room floor. In tears. Crying bucket loads. Listening to music. Woeful tunes. Unhelpful. But I can’t help it. Too many martinis… stirred not shaken… 007 Daniel Craig stylie… he’s not bothered if they are shaken or stirred. Mind racing. Heart racing. I don’t feel safe. An alien concept, I abore. I…

Still…

Still not right Lost my fight Can’t find my spark Trapped in the dark The smallest thing Sends me reeling Wish I could shake it Or even fake it God, I miss the light I just want to feel alright

Her Life…

…wasn’t meant to be like this, Trapped in the abyss! She tried to power through, Create life anew, For so long, too long, Now she’s disappeared; gone. Stress is the victor, Well and truly kicked her. It’s claiming its toll: She’s shattered, no longer whole. Vulnerable, scared, fearful, Confused, overwhelmed, tearful.  

Hero

I’m trying to find the hero in me. Trying to be strong. Trying to be brave. Trying to hold it together. Trying to float. But it is not working. I’m sinking. Lower than I’ve sank before. The hero has gone. All that is left is a scared, vulnerable, confused, emotional wreck. I am worried this…

The Opening

When there’s so much darkness closing in Just swerve around slowly You’ll find an opening A light will appear like an animal between the trees There you’ll find your pocket of peace Make a perfect circle, it’s all around you Put your mark on the map anywhere or nowhere It’s up to you, it’s not…