Mindfulness 

In my ongoing pursuit to soothe my disquieted mind, I have been looking into mindfulness.  My friend S is a huge fan: she swears by yoga.  Sadly, I don’t have the time (or a babysitter) to allow me to attend yoga classes.  So I have been trying to make little changes, to help me become…

Healing

I have had a tough start to 2017. 2016 was such a beast of year, I had imagined and hoped this year would be different. That the changing of the dial at midnight would somehow magically herald a new chapter. A change in fortune. The divorce would be over quickly. I would be able to…

Crash

Thirteen months today since the bomb was dropped.  And I’ve finally crashed. Throughout, the rollercoaster has been a wild ride; some days I’ve struggled to cope. But I always have. I have always picked myself up and bounced back. Not this time. I suspected it may happen. Feared it would. But hoped it wouldn’t. Hoped…

The Four Fs

My stress and anxiety levels have been rising again over the last few days. There’s a number of factors (in no particular order): Daughter’s continued sadness. And Ex’s persistent  reluctance to accept she would benefit from professional help. Hormones … my cycle is all over the place – it has been since the bomb –…

Blog Music – Timeline

I know Shakespeare intimated music was the food of love. But it is also the food of heartbreak. In fact, it is probably more poignant when coping with the pain and grief rejection causes. Music has played a massive part in helping me heal. Listening to songs very loudly whilst singing/screaming/shouting along very loudly helps…

This is Water

Another interesting post from Brainpickings.org Called… This is Water – click here … to read more. It contains extracts from David Foster Wallace’s  speech on life and contains links to audio of his actual talk too. This bit especially caught my attention.  And is particularly poignant given the person who spoke these words actually ended up…

Clean

‘One way to organise your thought is to tidy up, even if it’s in places where it makes no sense at all.’ Ursus Wehrli As I’ve said many times before, this process teaches you so many things about yourself. Some you probably always knew, but never really attended too. Others come as complete revelations. I…

‘Broken Record’

‘Some people will only love you as long as you fit in their box. Don’t be afraid to disappoint.’ Lecrae. Two steps forward. Ten steps back. Goes on ad infinitum. Until you decide enough is enough and do something to break the cycle. A friend told me about the ‘broken record technique’. It is a…

Dreams

‘May I return to the beginning. The light is dimming, and the dream is too. The world and I, we are still waiting. Still hesitating. Any dream will do.’ Any dream will do, Andrew Lloyd Webber and Tim Rice. Every Easter I like to give my children a ‘great memory’ as a gift. Unlike Christmas,…