So What

Another fucking wedding anniversary. 23 years today. I was so sure last year would be the last. So sure. I never imagined the divorce would drag on and on like it is doing. It is scandalous that the legal process is so slow and costs so much. Ridiculous! Unlike last year, where I still felt…

Greece is the word

Borrowing a line from one of my fav teen flicks. Not the right spelling, I know.  But Greece is where I is at. And it’s just what the children and I needed. My daughter is laughing and smiling. No daddy bedtime tears for two nights running now… what a relief. My son is chatting away…

Worth it

Posting about my inner demons. Like yesterday’s one on anxiety. Sometimes helps so much. Releasing them. Putting them down in black and white. Receiving words of support and encouragement (thank you Struth my wonderful friend). Seems to make them less powerful.  After Struth’s comments, I started to think, you know what, I am worth it. …

Stockholm Syndrome 

“If you are an approval addict, your behaviour is as easy to control as that of any other junkie. All a manipulator need do is a simple two-step process: Give you what you crave, and then threaten to take it away. Every drug dealer in the world plays this game.” Harriet B. Braiker When I…

Am I lonely?

I have a therapy session tomorrow, so I’ve been in reflective mode, thinking about what I’d like to discuss. This question keeps popping up – am I lonely?  I know I am not alone. I live with my children. I have great family and friends. I have AP. My children are wonderful companions. I enjoy…

Remember

When you’re feeling low, Remember how loved you are, By those who know The real you: the shiny star, Guiding others through times of woe. When you’re feeling low, Remember the good times you’ve shared, With those who know How to make you feel less lonely and scared, A safe harbour; always somewhere to go.…