Desire
The less you want me, The more I want you!
Why can’t it be easy?
Attempting to date these days is a minefield. I don’t know whether I’ve just been incredibly unlucky. Or I am drawn to/attract dickheads. Or it is because of my age group. Mid-40s. Inevitably, people have complex pasts, most seem to have done little to heal the wounds, choosing instead to wallow or use them as…
Liar
Explicitly asked Promised Then this… Ghost Hunting
Ghost Hunting
Constantly Obsessively Checking the phone Expecting to see a message Even though I know One isn’t there Because I have Constantly Obsessively Been listening For the ping The silence Says it all Ghosting
Used
Used and abused Again and again What is wrong with me! Why can’t I see The signs and patterns Before it turns Into degradation Keep flirtation From getting out of hand Stick to what I planned: Retain my self respect; Don’t be desperate to connect; No feelings of inferiority; Keep self worth the absolute priority…
Single is Sublime
I have been trawling the web. Trying to find a positive quote about the joy of embracing life as a singleton. Turns out, it’s an arduous task. These are merely a sample. Wtf. At best, being single is depicted as a waiting zone. A state to be tolerated until a knight in shining armour comes…
Apology
Since getting into streaming music, I was in the Amazon Prime Unlimited camp. Flute Boy invited me to join his Spotify family so we could share songs. I quickly became hooked. When I ended it, I kept using it: I’d built playlists and liked the mixes it suggested and the radios. I didn’t feel bad…
No Apps Required
My resolve to stay clear of Dating Apps continues. Yay! It’s 2 and a half months since it ended with the person I named My One (but have recently rebranded as Narc #2: I’ll explain this in another post, I don’t want him to be this focus of this one). I’ve had a super awesome…
Love Made Me Do It… Part 3
Part 2 ended with My One ending it. Abruptly. Unexpectedly. I had sensed a change in him but didn’t for one minute think it was terminal. I was anticipating a discussion. Thought he’d share with me what had being preoccupying him/making him behave differently. In my mind, nothing had occurred that was of magnitude to…
Love Made Me Do It… Part 2
Part 1 ended with me ending it with Flute Boy. I downloaded the Dating Apps again pretty much straight away. But it wasn’t Scatter Gun – part 6. It was very different. I was very different. Barely checked the apps. Rarely responded to messages. Swiped right only a handful of times. Three weeks in, and…
