Why can’t it be easy?

Attempting to date these days is a minefield. I don’t know whether I’ve just been incredibly unlucky. Or I am drawn to/attract dickheads. Or it is because of my age group. Mid-40s. Inevitably, people have complex pasts, most seem to have done little to heal the wounds, choosing instead to wallow or use them as…

Ghost Hunting

Constantly Obsessively Checking the phone Expecting to see a message Even though I know One isn’t there Because I have Constantly Obsessively Been listening For the ping The silence Says it all Ghosting

Used

Used and abused Again and again What is wrong with me! Why can’t I see The signs and patterns Before it turns Into degradation Keep flirtation From getting out of hand Stick to what I planned: Retain my self respect; Don’t be desperate to connect; No feelings of inferiority; Keep self worth the absolute priority…

Apology

Since getting into streaming music, I was in the Amazon Prime Unlimited camp. Flute Boy invited me to join his Spotify family so we could share songs. I quickly became hooked. When I ended it, I kept using it: I’d built playlists and liked the mixes it suggested and the radios. I didn’t feel bad…

Love Made Me Do It… Part 3

Part 2 ended with My One ending it. Abruptly. Unexpectedly. I had sensed a change in him but didn’t for one minute think it was terminal. I was anticipating a discussion. Thought he’d share with me what had being preoccupying him/making him behave differently. In my mind, nothing had occurred that was of magnitude to…