Mediate

Mediate. Try not to hate. But… You haven’t spoken to our children for over three months. Rather than talking to them, you’re making them discuss their worries and concerns with a stranger. Because you can’t face the hurt you’ve caused them and continue to cause them.

4 AM

I can’t sleep. I’m sat in the dark. Drinking tea. Mind racing. Heart racing. Writing. The doctor prescribed beta blockers to help ease the panic attacks… I am scared to try them. I have sleeping pills too… I am scared to try them. I do not want to have rely on medication to get me…

Strong

I’ve had a tough weekend. My daughter is having a slump. She’s always emotional and tearful when she comes home after visiting her dad. It usually takes her a few days to settle again. But this time, she’s not managed to bounce back. The sadness has stayed with her all week. She’s having trouble getting…

Happy Mum’s Day

It’s Mother’s Day today here in the U.K.  My children are excelling themselves. My son’s got up with my daughter so I could have a sleep in. They woke me around 10.30 am, with a fabulous breakfast in bed. They presented me with thoughtful cards, filled with heartfelt sentiments. And bought me lovely gifts: perfume,…

It never ends…

I’ve had a bad night with my youngest.  She was off school yesterday. She came back from her weekend with her father, complaining of tummy ache and saying that her heart hurt. Her symptoms seemed to suggest she had indigestion and heartburn. Her eating habits when she’s with her dad are not what I would…

Christmas is coming…

Two more sleeps. But there’s not the usual excitement build up. For any of us. The children are upset because they will not be with me. They go to Ex on Friday and will come home around 3pm on Christmas Day. Ex insisted. It’s his weekend with them and business should proceed as usual. There’s…